It won’t be anonymous… It will be the real me.. I’m getting out of what i’ve been doing and I don’t want this tumblr anymore, I want a fresh new tumblr with a fresh new me. Message me if you want the new URL…! 

Yeah, maybe you’re right! 

It’s bittersweet. I’m moving in with my dad. I’ve always lived with my brother and mom… I’m leaving my new friends that I’ve grown to love! I get to be reunited with my old one’s though. I’m scared. What if it’s not like it used to be? What if I’m STILL not happy? And what am I going to do about clients!? I’ll have to get all new ones… and more people know me around those parts… I may have to quit. On a brighter note though, I may not need the money. My dad is loaded and I’ll be an only child. Maybe I’ll get everything I want! Or maybe he’ll be super strict… I don’t know what to expect. I do know that he said I could get a kitten though! Which is something I have wanted FOREVER. I think getting a kitten would make it all worth it!

SO glad I listened to my cowardly self and not my stupid friends who kept telling me to text him! He’s probably been texting her for awhile! Thank God I didn’t try to do anything… I would’ve ended up looking stupid. Ugh. But this still sucks… The day before my birthday too… Damn. 

Ugh, I swear. He has driven me crazy. Or I have driven myself crazy. I had a dream last night that we got back together and that everything was perfect. That my mom even let me move in with him! NONE of that is ever going to happen but I wish my dreams would stop being so good because when I wake up, it just makes my real life seem that much worse…

Do you ever think your dreams are trying to tell you something? Like maybe something you should do… Maybe he would take me back if I would just work up the courage to try? It’s not worth it though… If he rejected me, I wouldn’t be back at square 1, I’d be even more hurt. I’d be in negative squares! I can’t handle that. So I guess I’ll just continue dreaming about a perfect life like a loser… Maybe someday….